The job change that I never thought would happen, did. I started working for MTW when the doors opened in January 2013. I really thought I’d work there forever. I’d always say, “I’m going to die working here.” But, they say if you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.
God had other plans for me. I’d had the feeling for a long time, months, years maybe that I needed to move on to something else. But I didn’t know what. And I didn’t want to leave. I didn’t want to leave the kids I saw or my co-workers who were like sisters. I was comfortable there. Until I wasn’t. When God wants you to do something, He’ll make life uncomfortable and keep pushing and prodding until you finally listen. Like when your kid is watching TV and you want him (or her) to clean up his room, so you keep after him and finally turn the TV off to get his attention so he’ll do what you told him to. My job didn’t get turned off, I did not get fired, but the desire to work there and the comfort of working there was turned off.
Then, God threw another wrench in the soup. Drew got a job building trails - in other states. For the past 5 years, he’s been the one picking the kids up from school while I worked. If he’s in another state, he can’t pick the kids up. On top of that, Conner still has lots of appointments to go to while we try to get him back to full health. It’s hard to work around all that when your job has set hours. Having to keep taking off work wasn’t good for the continuity of care for the kids I saw and I was going to have to cut my hours a lot to start picking up the kids.
So God kept pushing and proving and I kept asking, “But how is this going to work? You want me to leave, but what am I supposed to do?” Doors weren’t opening. I was so confused. Then one day I realized, I still wasn’t ok with leaving. And that’s why doors weren’t opening. A few days later after a lot of thought and prayer, doors did start opening. I got offered a job with a home health company that allows me to work the hours I need and pays well enough that I won’t be financially struggling to make up the difference.
My first week of home health was this week and it was fun! I enjoyed every minute of it. I’m out of the office (my car is my office), everybody is nice and helpful, I set my schedule how I want it, there’s very little stress (YAY!), and I get to see the huge smiles on my kids’ faces every day when they see me waiting for them in the car rider line at school. Granted, this week I was just training and riding with other people, so there might be a touch of stress next week when I go out on my own, but it will be minimal.
I told Drew every day felt like Friday this week. Before, Friday was the only day I could pick up the kids and the only day I was home before 6:15. But every day this week I’ve picked them up, gotten home in the middle of the afternoon, and spent the rest of the day doing things with the kids (and dogs, and chickens.)