Comparison and self-doubt are robbers and thieves: I am my own worst enemy
Big things happened in November of last year. Firstly, I completed a three month Blogging Bootcamp and launched my blog. Secondly, after two years and a lot of hard work I achieved the rank of Premier with Perfectly Posh. Which I should have promptly blogged about in my shiny new blog. Except. I didn’t. Why didn’t I, you ask? Comparison and self doubt. That’s why. Here’s how it went down.
The Blogging Bootcamp I did had a full set up option and a coaching only option. I did coaching only because it cost less and I decided I could probably figure out the other setup stuff myself. I’m pretty smart most days. Bootcamp used Genesis themes which do lots of cool things. Only, I couldn’t find a free WordPress theme that actually used Genesis. I did finally find a theme I liked well enough. I got it all set up. Made graphics to fit it for my most recent back posts. Wrote some new posts. And then decided I did NOT like that theme because I couldn’t use the nifty plugins to link to recent or featured posts or to categories. So, I went on a quest to find an inexpensive Genesis theme that a) I liked, b) I could customize fonts, headers, and backgrounds, and c) was easy to use.
They ALL say they’re easy. I found some that said you could customize everything you wanted, but when you got right down to it, you really couldn’t. So I got discouraged. And then… comparison hit. I started looking at the featured graphics I’d made and at the graphics on other blogs. Theirs looked all clean and professional and elegant. Mine, to my own worst enemy eye, looked goofy, childish, and kindof like I’d done them in crayon. And then there was the daunting task of needing to make additional graphics for crossposting my blog to FB, IG, Twitter, and Pinterest.
In short, I let myself get overwhelmed and I criticized myself right into paralysis. I gave up. I kept telling myself I was going to figure out this theme nonsense and get back at it soon, but I’d let me get all overwhelmed and I’d stop again.
Done is better than Perfect
A wise friend reminded me when I posted all my angst in our blogging accountability group that “done is better than perfect.” And she’s right. You know what? It doesn’t matter if my graphics aren’t as pretty and elegant as another blogger’s. I’m not a particularly elegant person. I raise chickens for fun and play with kids all day. Coloring with crayons makes me happy. I might even make some of my graphics look like I did draw them with crayon some day just for kicks! So, here I am, writing again like I’m supposed to be. My goal is to write one new blog post a week.
Premier back to PP3
Since I never did get around to writing a blog post about hitting the rank of Premier I’ve missed my opportunity. We lost rank in February, re-ranked in March, and lost it again in June so we’re technically a Pink+3 team again. Comparison really reared its ugly head after that and almost did steal my joy. This summer I thought very seriously about giving up. The Depression Monster that lives in my head kept saying things like, “Look at what SHE’S accomplishing. Why can’t you do that? She hit Premier in just a few months. It took you two years and now you’ve lost it again. What is wrong with you?” You get the picture. I have to stuff the Monster back down in its box and nail the lid back on. My journey is not like their journey. I absolutely cannot compare myself to them.
So I go and I learn from them, and I take my new knowledge and post it in my team group to help build them up and encourage them to keep growing. I find other fun things to post in my OpalTurtle Elevation group, to build them up and help them give themselves a little grace. If you’d like to join us, come for a visit, pull up a comfy chair by the fire, and sit a spell.